I’ve been ridiculously grumpy lately for no reason. I know I have much to grateful for, but I have been having a hard time counting my blessings. Over the last few weeks, we have been invited over to a few of our friends homes to celebrate new babies, new homes, new marriages and other fun life events. Everyone seems extremely happy with all the newness in their lives. On top of that, they all live in amazing homes! If you have been reading my blog for little bit, you know that I really don’t like our home but am trying to find contentment in it. I know I shouldn’t be trying to keep up with Joneses, but I am finding it really hard to be content with our present situation. It hasn’t helped also that my in-laws were visiting for Easter. There was literally not enough space to be comfortable for the duration of time they were here. I know, I know. I sound like a whiny brat. I’m trying to be better y’all! I am!
My apathy for our home is also affecting my eagerness to full execute the mortgage payoff plan. It’s hard to stay motivated when I have so much to pay off and in the end, I am still in a home that I don’t enjoy. I really should do a no spending challenge for April, but keep asking myself “For what? Why should I care?!” After work today, I spent about an hour looking through zillow.com and truila.com in search of my dream home. It actually helped motivate me somewhat. The type of home I want would require about a $80K – $100K down payment. We currently have about $10K in equity in our home, if I am being realistic. The more I pay down the mortgage, the more equity we have. At some point, we could sell this place when the equity is around $80K – $100K. In the meantime, we would have saved buttloads in interest payments. I have a little “For what?” motivation back. Hopefully it will lasts me a little while.
And maybe I need to stop accepting invitations from my fancy friends for a while!